When it rains it pours

One of the most challenging things to cope with is going through tough times in life and feeling like you're alone. In 2013, it was one of the most challenging years in my life. I had lost two friends that I considered family, lost my job, had to down grade to a studio apartment that had a major mice issue, and endured health challenges. It was the year that I never thought in a million years that I would encounter so much adversity and loss being 3,000 miles away from family with barely a support system. It was a challenge, a never ending battle that I felt I were loosing. I’d be happy to have visitors , and sad when they would leave. I didn’t have a significant other at the time, and I didn’t want to burden my parents with worry. All of my girlfriends from college and childhood lived all around the United States, and it was a very lonely place. I felt like God had cursed me, and allowed payback to come my way for things that I had done in the past that weren’t honored by him. He reminded me in his word that he didn’t say we wouldn’t face trails and tribulations, and that he would never put more on me than I could bare, but it felt different because I felt like there was a void there that he hadn’t filled . I later discovered that it was never a void, but it was a stripping that had to take place. God needed to remove natural toxins out of me to make room for my natural and spiritual blessings. As a single woman it was hard to receive that initially because I felt like he was snatching people and things away from me that and who had a special place in my heart. I also thought, dang he wouldn’t allow a significant other to come my way to have a shoulder to cry on. I felt like I was out there by myself. Later that year, he sent me my husband, but if I would have tried to pray or beg for him to give me my job back, or rekindle the lost relationships, would my testimony still stand? What is it that you are holding on to? Why is it that you are not allowing yourself to go through the uncomfortable journey? Understand that God makes no mistake Brown Girl! Hold on tight until he manifest the promise he’s birthed in you! Jeremiah 29:11 still remains, and he gives hope to the hopeless!